I thought I'd rid myself of emptiness,
Filled in every hole in my heart,
Fixed all the cracks
I was wrong
There's one more hole
The size of an abyss
Possible to fill
But not for me
I know what's missing
Every detail of it
I could fill it in
But it would tear it all away from you,
Leave you with nothing
Even if it was filled,
Someone would lose what I had gained
Impossible to fix this link in the chain,
No soul left to fill this space
No energy to fix this poor place
Empty space
The one last place
Now I feel I'm fading
All my dreams are not worth saving
I will leave you with all I have
Before I waste away
All I have lef
It started a long time ago.
Just a tiny lie,
planted in my soul.
the sun shined,
The storms came,
The lie grew.
It now dominates my life.
Choking all that's good.
The deceiver whispered in my ear:
"You're fat"
"You're ugly"
"You have no worth"
"You're useless"
Words that torment,
Words that rip at my heart.
They bind me in chains,
and steal my happiness.
Ruin my life.
My Life is taking steps backwards.
I never progress,
I just fall behind.
Trapped in the lies
that keep me from life
There is no fullness of life.
No reason to press on.
Just me and the lies.